** Triger warning – This post contains information on Mental Health and may trigger some unwanted emotions. **

June is PTSD awareness month, the 27th in particular is dedicated solely to PTSD world wide. I decided to write this post to help other’s understand and beat the stigma behind PTSD after being diagnosed with it myself last year.

Throughout this post I will talk about what PTSD actually is and give you abit of insight to what I personally go through. Now I have no medical degree, but ALOT of experience and want to share that with you. I WON’T be talking about why I actually have PTSD in this post. If it’s something you may be interested in then do let me know as that will be something I’m willing to write about.

This post is in collaboration with my fab group of girl’s from The Blog Brew Collab. Every month we chose a topic to write about and each take a day to share our stories/opinions supporting eachother. I will leave the link’s to their post’s at the bottom of this post so please do check these lovely ladie’s post’s out!!

What Is PTSD

Post
Traumatic
Stress
Disorder

PTSD is a mental health illness that people can suffer from after experiencing a traumatic event/event’s in their life. It is widely and mostly known as something military veteran’s have after coming home from war. But what people don’t realise is that ANYONE can have it. Whether it’s from a personal trauma or seeing someone else going through something traumatic, it can greatly effect us at any point in time after the event.

The Symptoms

  • Mood Swings
  • Severe Anxiety
  • Paranoia
  • The Feeling Of Always Being On Edge
  • Nightmares
  • Night Terrors
  • Flashbacks
  • Panic Attacks
  • Easily Startled
  • Trembling Thinking Of The Event

These are just SOME of the symptoms of PTSD.


My Story With PTSD

When I was around 11/12 I started feeling down alot, I remember having this feeling of a hole in the pit of my stomach and the thought of dread everywhere I turned grew bigger by the day. By age 13 my night terrors were getting worse, I’d often wake up screaming, shaking, covered in sweat in a panic affraid to go back to sleep. Not long after the anger outburst’s started and I was labelled a ‘troubled child’ an ‘ungreatful child’ a ‘moody teenager’. I started self harming, cutting myself on my wrists, ankles, hips, anywhere I could hide the marks. This was my escape from my head, a moment to think and feel something else, to stop the voice in my head reminding me of how pathetic I was, of how everyone must hate me, flashing image’s like a video on repeat of thing’s I didn’t want to remember.

At 16 I was told I had depression and given antidepressants and sent on my way to get on with it. Councillors gave up on me, said I wasn’t in enough of a state to qualify for help. That’s right, you have to QUALIFY to need help. I guess telling them I didn’t want to be alive anymore and cutting myself daily wasn’t enough.

Fast forward year’s of screaming, frustration, tears, scars on top of scars, hating myself feeling like I didn’t deserve to be here or feeling lost inside my own head, I started to feel lost in the world. Nobody could help me I just had to try and get on with it. Until last year.

I finally met a Dr who wanted to help me, a psychiatrist that that had the time to actually listen to me. Within minute’s she diagnosed me with PTSD and EDD’s (You can read my post’s on EDD’s here) from the trauma’s Id been through in my childhood in hospital, but that’s a story for another blog post!!

It’s been 11 months since my diagnosis, I’m on the right medication, I’ve completed a trauma therapy course and learnt new tools to help me on my bad days. I’m not self harming anymore and I’m starting to feel like I do deserve to be happy. I still have alot of bad days as I’m still coming to terms with everything, but just knowing I’m not just ‘depressed’ or ‘mental’ as I’ve been called in the past has lifted a great weight off my shoulders!!

Every single day is a battle, you don’t know if you’re going to wake up and feel ok or if that voice in your head is going to be full of energy reminding you of all the bad stuff. Having PTSD can be a very lonely place that nobody can change except yourself with the help of a good DR and the right medication, oh, and years of therapy!!


Did you know that 70% of adults experience at least one traumatic event in their lifetime. 20% of people who experience a traumatic event will develop PTSD. About 8 million people have PTSD in a given year. 1 in 13 people will develop PTSD at some point in their life. Most of these people will be mis-diagnosed with depression or anxiety. People with PTSD have a higher rate of committing scuicide, we need to raise more awareness to get more help for people suffering. If I hadn’t got the right help when I did I fear where my life would have led to further down the road as I really was at my breaking point. Don’t mistake this for being unhappy as I have the most amazing parents, husband and children I could ask for, but when you battle with your own mental demons it can be a lonley place!!


I hope this has given you a good insight to what PTSD actually is. It’s not just about war’s or violence. For me, it was life saving treatment that in the mind of a child was ALOT differen’t to what was happening. As I said above, if this is something you would like to read let me know. Sometime’s seeing thing’s from a differen’t perspective can really help shed some light.

Much Love – Mrs Slee-Jones xx

For anyone suffering or feeling lonely, I am alway’s willing to listen and support you, that’s why I started this blog, to help other’s not feel alone. You can reach me on my Contact Page, I read every single comment and email so feel free to get in touch!!

Don’t forget to check out the rest of the post’s from this month’s BlogBrew collab!!


6th  June – Head over to https://introvertedcreativity.com 
8th June – Head over to https://chimmyville.co.uk
10th June – Head over to  https://perselem.blog
14th June– Head over to https://wondererandtraveller.wordpress.com
14th June– Head over to https://mybreakingviews.com
17th June – Head over to https://talesofbelle.com
18th June – Head over to https://kirstymarie.co.uk
24th June– Head over to https://themakeupbybeth.com

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16 thoughts on “Me, Myself And PTSD”

    1. Elizabeth Justine Redden

      It was last year that I was diagnosed with PTSD and severe depressive illness. Like you it is thanks to a psychiatrist that I finally got an answer and started to receive the help I have needed for 40 years. I would just like to say to anyone who is in turmoil not to give up, get yourself referred to a psychiatrist. There is no stigma anymore and it could save your life. Much love.

      1. Mrs. Slee-Jones
        Mrs. Slee-Jones

        Thanks for your comment hun, I’m sure everyone will really love that positivity!! Stay strong xx

  1. Such a great post, it’s amazing what can happen if you get the right help, but it’s so infuriating that it’s so difficult to get that help.

    My partner has ptsd, when we first got together the flashbacks and nightmares/tremors were really bad.

    1. Mrs. Slee-Jones
      Mrs. Slee-Jones

      Dealing ith the trigger’s are one of the hardest thing’s I’ve found to learn how to manage. I hope it eases for you at some point. So sorry for your loss xxx

  2. Thank you for writing such an honest and open blog post. I’m so glad you were finally able to get the right diagnosis and support! Xx

  3. This is so informative and great for raising awareness! I learnt a lot from reading this and the stats are much higher than I’d thought they would be. Thank you for sharing your personal story. I think in cases of awareness it really helps to hear it from a personal perspective x

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