** Triger warning – This post contains information on Mental Health and may trigger some unwanted emotions. **

June is PTSD awareness month, the 27th in particular is dedicated solely to PTSD world wide. I decided to write this post to help others understand and beat the stigma behind PTSD after being diagnosed with it myself last year.

Throughout this post, I will talk about what PTSD actually is and give you a bit of insight into what I personally go through. Now I have no medical degree, but A LOT of experience and want to share that with you. I WON’T be talking about why I actually have PTSD in this post. If it’s something you may be interested in then do let me know as that will be something I’m willing to write about.

This post is in collaboration with my fab group of girl’s from The Blog Brew Collab. Every month we chose a topic to write about and each takes a day to share our stories/opinions supporting each other. I will leave the link’s to their posts at the bottom of this post so please do check these lovely ladies’ post’s out!!

What Is PTSD

Post
Traumatic
Stress
Disorder

PTSD is a mental health illness that people can suffer from after experiencing traumatic events in their life. It is widely and mostly known as something military veterans have after coming home from war. But what people don’t realize is that ANYONE can have it. Whether it’s from a personal trauma or seeing someone else going through something traumatic, it can greatly affect us at any point in time after the event.

The Symptoms

  • Mood Swings
  • Severe Anxiety
  • Paranoia
  • The Feeling Of Always Being On Edge
  • Nightmares
  • Night Terrors
  • Flashbacks
  • Panic Attacks
  • Easily Startled
  • Trembling Thinking Of The Event

These are just SOME of the symptoms of PTSD.


My Story With PTSD

When I was around 11/12 I started feeling down a lot, I remember having this feeling of a hole in the pit of my stomach and the thought of dread everywhere I turned grew bigger by the day. By age 13 my night terrors were getting worse, I’d often wake up screaming, shaking, covered in sweat in a panic afraid to go back to sleep. Not long after the anger outburst’s started and I was labeled a ‘troubled child’ an ‘ungrateful child’ a ‘moody teenager’. I started self-harming, cutting myself on my wrists, ankles, hips, anywhere I could hide the marks. This was my escape from my head, a moment to think and feel something else, to stop the voice in my head reminding me of how pathetic I was, of how everyone must hate me, flashing image’s like a video on repeat of thing’s I didn’t want to remember.

At 16 I was told I had depression and given antidepressants and sent on my way to get on with it. Councilors gave up on me, said I wasn’t in enough of a state to qualify for help. That’s right, you have to QUALIFY to need help. I guess telling them I didn’t want to be alive anymore and cutting myself daily wasn’t enough.

Fast forward years of screaming, frustration, tears, scars on top of scars, hating myself feeling like I didn’t deserve to be here, or feeling lost inside my own head, I started to feel lost in the world. Nobody could help me I just had to try and get on with it. Until last year.

I finally met a Dr who wanted to help me, a psychiatrist that that had the time to actually listen to me. Within minute’s she diagnosed me with PTSD and EDD’s (You can read my post’s on EDD’s here) from the trauma’s Id been through in my childhood in the hospital, but that’s a story for another blog post!!

It’s been 11 months since my diagnosis, I’m on the right medication, I’ve completed a trauma therapy course and learned new tools to help me on my bad days. I’m not self-harming anymore and I’m starting to feel like I do deserve to be happy. I still have a lot of bad days as I’m still coming to terms with everything, but just knowing I’m not just ‘depressed’ or ‘mental’ as I’ve been called in the past has lifted a great weight off my shoulders!!

Every single day is a battle, you don’t know if you’re going to wake up and feel ok or if that voice in your head is going to be full of energy reminding you of all the bad stuff. Having PTSD can be a very lonely place that nobody can change except yourself with the help of a good DR and the right medication, oh, and years of therapy!!


Did you know that 70% of adults experience at least one traumatic event in their lifetime? 20% of people who experience a traumatic event will develop PTSD. About 8 million people have PTSD in a given year. 1 in 13 people will develop PTSD at some point in their life. Most of these people will be misdiagnosed with depression or anxiety. People with PTSD have a higher rate of committing suicide, we need to raise more awareness to get more help for people suffering. If I hadn’t got the right help when I did I fear where my life would have led to further down the road as I really was at my breaking point. Don’t mistake this for being unhappy as I have the most amazing parents, husband, and children I could ask for, but when you battle with your own mental demons it can be a lonely place!!


I hope this has given you a good insight to what PTSD actually is. It’s not just about war or violence. For me, it was a life-saving treatment that in the mind of a child was ALOT different from what was happening. As I said above, if this is something you would like to read let me know. Sometime’s seeing thing’s from a different perspective can really help shed some light.

Much Love – Mrs Slee-Jones xx

For anyone suffering or feeling lonely, I am always willing to listen and support you, that’s why I started this blog, to help other’s not feel alone. You can reach me on my Contact Page, I read every single comment and email so feel free to get in touch!!

Don’t forget to check out the rest of the posts from this month’s BlogBrew collab!!


6th  June – Head over to https://introvertedcreativity.com 
8th June – Head over to https://chimmyville.co.uk
10th June – Head over to  https://perselem.blog
14th June– Head over to https://wondererandtraveller.wordpress.com
14th June– Head over to https://mybreakingviews.com
17th June – Head over to https://talesofbelle.com
18th June – Head over to https://kirstymarie.co.uk
24th June– Head over to https://themakeupbybeth.com

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22 thoughts on “Me, Myself And PTSD”

    1. Elizabeth Justine Redden

      It was last year that I was diagnosed with PTSD and severe depressive illness. Like you it is thanks to a psychiatrist that I finally got an answer and started to receive the help I have needed for 40 years. I would just like to say to anyone who is in turmoil not to give up, get yourself referred to a psychiatrist. There is no stigma anymore and it could save your life. Much love.

      1. Mrs. Slee-Jones
        Mrs. Slee-Jones

        Thanks for your comment hun, I’m sure everyone will really love that positivity!! Stay strong xx

  1. Such a great post, it’s amazing what can happen if you get the right help, but it’s so infuriating that it’s so difficult to get that help.

    My partner has ptsd, when we first got together the flashbacks and nightmares/tremors were really bad.

    1. Mrs. Slee-Jones
      Mrs. Slee-Jones

      Dealing ith the trigger’s are one of the hardest thing’s I’ve found to learn how to manage. I hope it eases for you at some point. So sorry for your loss xxx

  2. Thank you for writing such an honest and open blog post. I’m so glad you were finally able to get the right diagnosis and support! Xx

  3. This is so informative and great for raising awareness! I learnt a lot from reading this and the stats are much higher than I’d thought they would be. Thank you for sharing your personal story. I think in cases of awareness it really helps to hear it from a personal perspective x

  4. How did I not see this wonderful post sooner?! I have PTSD because of my daughters school losing her. I partially explained it in my blog post about homeschooling and how I get to relax this year. I have dealt with this for 4 years now. This is the first year I felt tons better and then go figure the pandemic happens and I don’t have to send her anyways. I appreciate you sharing this personal post and I am virtually wrapping you in the biggest hug ever!

    1. Mrs. Slee-Jones
      Mrs. Slee-Jones

      I am so sorry ou had to go through that, it must have been awful!! I bet having her home has been such a relief to you. Sending massive hugs back to you!!

  5. It takes so much of courage to speak out on such difficult phases of your life. I appreciate the efforts that you have taken to help others out by sharing this info. Wishing you a blessed life ahead.

  6. So amazing of you to share this post, particularly as you’ve given such an in depth account of what it actually is and the statistics as well. In terms of mental health/illness PTSD isn’t spoke about or understood enough so posts like this are extremely important. Thanks for sharing x

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